Saturday 9 July 2011

My Life- My Friends

When I hold your hand,
I feel secure....
When we chat for hours,
I feel Blessed....
Whenever I feel alone,
I never hesitate....
In calling you up and chitchatting for no reason.....
When I get annoyed,
its you who make me laugh....
When I falter while walking on the road of my life....
Its you who lend me a helping hand to stand up again....
When I am depressed,
you give me your shoulder.....
We fight, we cry, we end up in sullen faces...
But in front of the world,
we are one, whatsoever be the cases...
We know each other,
we trust each other completely....
Despite being so different,
we are counterparts in life...
For me, its you, for you, its me, no one else....
For the rest of the world we are a separate entity....
Who says that Love is the only road to happiness???
I say its friendship which bridges the gap.....
Between a Life "Spent" and a Life "Lived"...
Thanks for being in my life and adding colours to it.....
Thanks for making me "Live" my life....
Not just spend it...
Love u all...
You all are my life...
Be there always.... :-)

Waiting For You......

When the sun sets slowly......
Down the mesmerising hills.....
And the night turns out to become........
A messenger of loneliness.....
Remember my love.........I am waiting for you........
When the stars loom like blinking stones.........
In the dimly lit sky..........
And the moon wanders through the dark clouds........
The moon light slips on your head..........
To your eyes and to your lips........
And evokes some forgotten imprints......
Remember my love......
I am waiting for you.......
When the silence of the night..........
Creeps up into your bed.........
And tingles you to wake up.........
From the trance of your dreams........
And the slowly blowing breeze.........
Brings a sweet aroma of memories........
Remember my love..........
I am waiting for you.........
When you stand alone.........
Watching the shining silver clouds.........
At midnight........
And wonder why every  star blinks at you..........
And you feel that the air is singing........
And the moon is calling.........
To come and get lost in their world.........
Get embraced in the romance of eternity.........
Remember my love...........I am waiting for you..........
When the far reaching horizon........
Seems so near..........
That you feel you are a part of it.........
And slowly the twinkles fall down.........
Sparkling in your embrace..........
With the warmth of deep eternal affection.........
Remember my love.......
I am waiting for you..........
When the dew starts settling down.........
On the crisp green leaves of young daffodils..........
And the roses sprout with new shy buds........
Waiting to turn into audacious blooms.........
To enchant and spellbind the world........
With their intoxifying beauty.........
Remember my love........
I am waiting for you......
When slowly the night starts fading away.........
The curtain of sweet darkness gets rolled up........
And the sun starts painting the canvas of sky........
With vivid red strokes...
And the warmth of dawn.......
Wakes up the world with a smile.......
Remember my love.....
I am still waiting for you.......
Waiting for you.........
Waiting for you........
Waiting for you.............

Sometimes......

Sometimes....
I feel growing up from inside.........
Calm, recollected and composed...........
And the next moment.........
My lucky star does a bunk...........
And I feel I have lost my way......
Sometimes........
I wake up suddenly...........
To clutch unseen hands of help...........
To get rescued from a nightmare..........
But I come to know............
That I am alone to face the fear..........
To fight the perils of my life............
And I gradually realize...........
The fallacy of concilation...........
Put forward by people...........
And I laugh at myself for.........
believing them...........
Sometimes..........
I feel so warm............
Just by watching the sunset..........
And i feel deeply moved inside.........
By thinking that one has to fall...........
Before one plans to rise............
I retrospect my downfall.........
Seeming endless into a never ending rift.........
And the next moment...........
I summon all my strength...........
To assure that I am going to rise again..........
Sometimes............
I feel torn apart and lost...........
In a maze of mirrors.........
And I am unable to find myself.........
I feel like I have lost my identity..........
In this horrendous world.............
Sometimes........
While walking on a lonely road..........
I pace up myself to get even with someone.........
To catch hold of his hand..........
So not to let him go.........
But my efforts remain futile...........
For my hands do not find anyone to hold them..........
And they gradually retreat..........
In a disquieting silence..........
Whose irony again makes me smile...........
And I think....
I am going to be the one to hold someone's hands.........
Which reach out to me in search of help.........
I am not going to be the dependent........
I am not going to be the helpless.........
I am going to be the helper......
Sometimes.......
The loneliness around me engulfs me like a coil of a snake.......
And I struggle to trudge myself out..........
The messengers of Satan inject the seething heat of hatred inside me............
And I feel overpowered enough to succumb to it and ignore myself.......
But the next moment I emerge..........
From the deep valley of trauma........
To fight back for myself.........
And to survive as a Victor, not a looser..........
Sometimes.........
I feel dying from inside...........
Shattered to pieces, deep from within...........
Due to the transitory world and its ways...........
But, I know...........
I am here to change the ways.........
The perpetrators of this dehumanisation.......
Block my way at every step........
But I know I have to fight...........
Against hate, against loneliness.........
Against rage and against fear........
Against all the odds inside me........
I am not a personality.....
I am "personalities" from within.......
Each with its aura............
And I try to balance myself........
In each way possible.........
Seems incongruent, seems ridiculous to some.....
But this is the bitter truth......
Which is going to be the cure of my malady.......
Being one with myself.........
Fighting back, yes.......
My journey has begun.....
And I keep walking.....
Not sometimes....but.........
Always..................

Can't Stop Thinking About You

The mesmerising memories, the love that is true
How can I tell you darling I can't stop thinking about you...
The sweet smell of showers in which we got drenched
Our love was the only pool where our thirst got quenched
Dribbling on the tiny pebbles, brimming like a brook
Oh my sweetheart how can I forget your that look
Whenever I am happy you know the reason is who
How can I tell you darling I can't stop thinking about you...
The serene smile on your face lights up my day
Your just a little laugh makes me find my way
I never feel alone I know you are always by my side
I have started dreaming now with my eyes open wide
New is the way I think, The way I act is new
How can I tell you darling I can't stop thinking about you...
When I close my eyes, I can just see your face
And when I open up my eyelids, I can feel your embrace
When I hear my name I can see your lips smiling
When you look at me with love I can see your eyes shining
You know this truth that you are the reason behind everything I do
How can I tell you darling I can't stop thinking about you...
I see the rivers running down the hills to meet the sea
I want to indulge in you as a river and become free
You are the ocean of my love, you are my expressive sky
Your smell is mixed up with the breeze that passes me by
I miss you darnly baby I know you miss me too
How can I tell you darling I can't stop thinking about you...
Yous love melts like ice, chills me to my heart
Even a single thought of separation tears me apart
The rain brings the message that you are missing me now
I will reach to you my darling no matter what and how
You know the reson I am living and the reason is YOU.....
How can I tell you darling I can't stop thinking about you..........
How can I tell you darling I can't stop thinking about you...........
How can I tell you darling I can't stop thinking about you.....................

Kaise???

Tumhare Dil me basi dhadkan hu main
Apne Dil se mujhe bhulaoge kaise?
Jo tumhare man me basi meri tasveer hai
Use apne hathon se mitaoge kaise?
Tumhari zindagi ka main hi to saaz hu
Bina mere koi dhun banaoge kaise?
Har saans tumhaari to mera hi nam leti hai
Apni saanson ke bina jee paoge kaise?
Apna chehra to tumne hamesha meri ankhon me dekha hai
Ab aks dekhne ko naya darpan laaoge kaise?
Raahein to tumhari mere saath chalne ko bani hain
Mere bina tum un par kadam badhaoge kaise?
Roshan hai tumahara jeeven meri hansi ke dum se
Rulakar mujhe ghar me diya jalaoge kaise?
Tumhare har pal ko maine apni baaton se sajaya hai
Mere bina wo pal saare bitaoge kaise?
Chaahe anchaahe bhi mere paas hi aate ho
Main na rahungi to aansu chchipaoge kaise?
Tumhari har khwahish ko maine palko pe sajaya hai
Auron se apni khwaahishein puri kar paaoge kise?
Roothne manane ki mere saath jo tumhari yaadein hain
Unhe yad kar chupchaap aansu bahaoge kaise?
Wo nadi kinaare ki khilkhil, wo raahon ki chuppi
Un saare palo ko ek saath sanjo paaoge kaise?
Aaj har mod par mera haath thaam lete ho
Na rahungi main to in raahon me mud paaoge kaise?
Mushkilein jab aati hain to mujhe hi talaashte ho
Mere bina ye mushkilein akele suljhaoge kaise?
Tumhaare jeevan ka har pal mera aadi ho chuka hai
Mere bina ab ek bhi kadam chal paaoge kaise?
Ye nadiyaan ye jharne sab to meri hi yaad dilate hain
Mujhse door hokar inke paas ja paoge kaise?
Maana ki mere sath saat pheron ka bandhan nahi tumhara
Par kisi aur ke saath bhi phere le paaoge kaise?
Jab tan man me mujhe deewano ki tarah basa rakha hai
To batao mujhe kisi aur ke deewane ban paaoge kaise?
Aaj mere saath jeene marne ki kasmein khaate ho tum
Tod kar wo saari kasmein khud se nazrein milaoge kaise?
Maana ki mera saath bhi ek bandhan maangta hai
Par mujhe chchodkar kisi naye bandhan me bandh paaoge kaise?
Main koi tohfa ya uphaar nahi maanti khud ko
Par mere na milne par batao, khush rah paaoge kaise?
Chun Chun kar tumhaare liye main varmaala banati hu
Thukra kar use koi upvan seench paaoge kaise?
Mere naam ko apne hothon pe sajaaye phirte ho
Kisi aur ke naam ko hothon se lagaoge kaise?
Itni mehnat se sapno ka ashiyaana saath banaya hai
Todkar use koi naya basera sajaoge kaise?
Poori duniya ke saamne to mujhe hi apna chuke ho
Ab muh pherkar kisi aur ko apna banaoge kaise?
Main wo tootta taara hu jiski jhalak par tum zindagi maangte ho
Toot jaungi hamesha ki khaatir to mujhe jod paaoge kaise?
Saath baith kar samandar kinaare ret ke mahal banate ho aaj
Jab koi lehar le jaaye use to rok paaoge kaise?
Aaj tak tumhaare har sawal ka main hi jawab banti aayi hun
Jo uthege mere baad us sawal ka jawab de paaoge kaise?
Meri zindgi hi to tumhaare jeene ka maksad rahi hai ab tak
Mujhse bichchadkar ae meri jaan, bolo jee paoge kaise?
Bolo jee paoge kaise........ Jee paoge kaise??????